Day 12: Discouraged

Woke up in time to get to work on time. Worked from 9am to 4pm. The only juice I had was from 3 limes and one orange. Tart! Drank lots of water and smoked throughout the day. I was fine with everything until I was heading out the door...and got really hungry and all of a sudden I had the strongest "FUCK IT" sensation. I ordered a burger medium rare with fries. Ate that sucker when I got home. Just weighed in at 180 lbs.

I think I need re-evaluate whether or not this is really a time for me to be going into a fast. As far as cleanses go this one isn't going too well. I'm hardly juicing. I eat intermitantly. I'm not sleeping enough to compensate for less food intake. Maybe I can't do it the second time or maybe I don't have the self control to do it like this right now. Or maybe I shouldn't have done it immediately after school ended since this is normally a time to cut lose and relax and drink and unwind from the year. Whatever it is if I can't make more progress, in terms of resisting solids and or tabacco, in the next couple of days I think I should call it quits and try again in another six months.