Day 13: It's officially over

Yep. Slept over it. Thought about it a lot and I have to end it. This fast attempt was a failure. I'm stopping it here since it is obviouse from reading the previouse entries that I was not committed to a)not smoking b) juicing consistantly.

It's back to fully solids for me. Until I fast again.

Day 12: Discouraged

Woke up in time to get to work on time. Worked from 9am to 4pm. The only juice I had was from 3 limes and one orange. Tart! Drank lots of water and smoked throughout the day. I was fine with everything until I was heading out the door...and got really hungry and all of a sudden I had the strongest "FUCK IT" sensation. I ordered a burger medium rare with fries. Ate that sucker when I got home. Just weighed in at 180 lbs.

I think I need re-evaluate whether or not this is really a time for me to be going into a fast. As far as cleanses go this one isn't going too well. I'm hardly juicing. I eat intermitantly. I'm not sleeping enough to compensate for less food intake. Maybe I can't do it the second time or maybe I don't have the self control to do it like this right now. Or maybe I shouldn't have done it immediately after school ended since this is normally a time to cut lose and relax and drink and unwind from the year. Whatever it is if I can't make more progress, in terms of resisting solids and or tabacco, in the next couple of days I think I should call it quits and try again in another six months.

Day 11: Atlantic City and work a bad mix

John and I rolled into A.C. around 9.30 pm Friday night. We left, as agreed, at 6 am Saturday morning so that I could go to work at 9 am. I slept an hour in the car on the way up. Munched on one carrot to get the all-nighter casino breath out. It was a good thing that the poker room was no smoking because I only ended up smoking once during the night and a couple of times on the way home. I came home and heated up some left overs and ate rice and fish and some other leftovers and hoped that would get me through the day. Worked from 9 am to 8pm. Came home and passed out. That's right no juicing at all.

Day 10: way laid by Atlantic City...again

Went to bed really late...the sun was just about to rise. Got up around 2pm putzed around the house. Weighed in at 179. Had the day off and eventually decided to do something. Called my friend John who was on his way to A.C. I told him to turn around and get me. Did not juice at all. Ended up munching on carrots on they way down. Started my smoking when I got into John's car.

Day 9

Got up at 1:30. Weigh in at 179 lbs. Had 8 oz of orange juice. Went to work from 5pm - 1.30 am. I felt no dizziness or hunger pangs at all today. Unfortunately I decided to go to the diner with the co-workers before going home and ended up having a 2 eggs over easy with french fries and brown gravy. It is now 3.30 in the morning and it wants to come out. I can feel it butting up against my throat. I'm resisting the urge because given my failure rate that would just make this fast an eating disorder. I've been smoking throughout the day. I would say I had about 6-8 cigarettes.

Tomorrow/today I really need to be more diligent about this fast.

Day 8: Oh how I've sinned

Phone wake up call at 9.20am at Laura's got up immediately to head down for the charity event. Drank about 3 oz. of Vruit juice and drove home to change for the charity cook out. Ended up eating a hot dog with ketchup and sourkrout and a cheeseburger with sourkrout. They sat in my stomach like rocks. Had 2 movements today, probably due to the increased intake of solids.

Around 6pm I ate a quarter of a baguette and some of my stinky cheese. I smoked all day. I weigh in at 18l lbs. I smoked all the live long day.

Day 7

I woke up at 9 and got up 10am. I'm seeing a trend of liking to lay about a bit before going about me day. Weighed in at 180 lbs. Have not juiced. Ate lunch, a little eggplant parm with a side of speghetti, bought a pack of cigarettes. Hmmm...

Wow did I ever stray. Around 7.30pm I got a call from Laura to come out for drinks. I was going to demure because of the fast and because I wasn't sure I wanted to make the effort and felt immediately bad about the effort part. So off I went. Long story short I had 3 Malibu Bay Breezes and a Grey Goose L'Orange and cranberry. The only juice I had today was processed, pasturized and mixed with alcohol. I don't think that juice recipe is on ANY cleanse, no matter how hard you google it. SMOKE WAY TOOO MUCH...